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one.
And i hope you know, i sit here almost every night staring at my phone.
waiting for your name to come up on the screen. and it never does.
i hope you know i pray for you. PRAY for you. 

two.
 you're all i think about, every second of every day. i can barely write a
complete sentence without messing up because i'm thinking of that stupid
smile of yours. i do all these things for you baby, and i wonder
do i ever even cross your mind? even for a little while?

three.
sometimes, i feel like i don't belong where i am and that i have the wrong people in my life. i get this feeling, like i'm an outsider even when i'm being included or that i'm always around people who don't know me at all. then i see you smile at me and i don't mind being invisible to the rest of the world, i realize i'll always feel alone without you around.

four.
 you're wrong for me and i know i shouldnt want you but theres something about you that keeps me wanting more, theres something about you that makes me want to chase after you. liking you is killing me, but baby you make life worth while. your perfect and you don't even know it. some say love is blind, and lets just say i need help finding my way around town.

five.
have you ever just laid awake in bed, and thought for a moment and realized, that you have no idea who the fuck you are anymore? 

six.
i hate this feeling. like i'm here, but i'm not. like someone cares, but they don't. like i belong somewhere else, anywhere but here. 

seven.
relationships are like candles. some burn quickly, dying with a single blow. some burn for a while and then disappear in the blink of an eye. still, some burn, flickering, wavering on and off. and even still, some last forever, and relight the second they're blown out.

eight.
Am I mad at you? That's your main concern after devastating my whole world? 
Mad for what? Breaking my heart? Or for all the lies?
 Maybe for letting me put all my trust in you only to be betrayed? 
How about the fact you didn't even have the decency to tell me to my face? 
Or the way you think it's crazy that I'm crying over it cause to you breaking up is no big deal. 
Am I mad at you?... no. More like crushed, did I ever really know you? 

nine.
Let's try to keep this simple because I hate having to write such long things about you. The thing with you is that you're arrogant and ever since you've entered my life, it's been chaotic as hell but you are also the best thing that's ever happened to me. The way you try to act cool and pretend like you hate me, you're my 'once in a lifetime kinda love' and I don't know what I'd do without you. 

ten.
and even if we never talk again, please remember that i'm forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me. 

eleven.
 i wanna know what would happen if it was given a chance. i just wanna know what would happen. i think it could be magical, but i may never know.. this is what i get for keeping everything inside.. i may never know..